2013年6月19日、21:06 PM
Todays another cold day, as the cold breeze of the weather gently touches my skin i felt relieved. I keep on thinking about whats happening to us, to the people around me and to the people i am close to. I've never thought of this would come in my Junior life, i never thought of being stress at this kind of situation, I've given everything, I never lack of responsibility as a partner but that wasn't enough, everything wasn't enough.
Everytime i see him in school and see his face with no worries makes me feel guilty, He seemed not to be aware of whats really happening in our relationship. So, i just dont mind interacting with him cause i'll regret something in my life.
Inside the classroom, i'm smelling some fishy things. My friends hiding something from me and i've found that they're talking about Me and 'Angelo', my oh-so-called-crush, but nevertheless it was a slight feelings that im feeling for him i never thought that he would be serious about it, kinda happy but at some part i keep on remembering about 'us'. I arrived home at 16:00 something, i feel so stressed. I just do my chores and eat then i go straight forward on my bed, I texted him and ask him if he want to talk to me, he said yes.
Our first conversation was really a joke, but every words im replying to him breaks my heart, i can't pretend that i'm happy with our situation and he seemed to be like nothing with it. Until i ask him seriously. I talked to him via call and whatsoever he shouted at me telling that HE DOESN'T KNOW the answer, i give him a week to decide for his answer, a week for us to answer that question. Its good for the both us, if nothing happened between that week then i have no choice but to gave him up, i can't stand to be like fool always waiting for something to happen. 'Jennysis', Our Class president, even help me with him. I don't know if it will work out but its a "Trial and Error" thing, i was grateful for her deeds and yet im still waiting for the results.
But inside this whole mess in my life, i have these FRIENDS whose willing to support and cheer me up. Im glad that i have them. So today im gonna call it DAY ONE, as a start of the things that will change my life.
