2013年6月13日、21:52 PM
Its rainy day. I kinda feel uncomfortable, i don't know i just came to the thought of very uncomfortable. This is not the usual me, back then i'm that energetic to attend first up to third weeks of class. I suddenly thought of doing the same routine in everyday and its really tiring for me cause i get bored easily. Inside the classroom we've met our Filipino teacher named Mr. Mark Lee Sartorio, he's also my Fil. teacher when i was in second year, we introduced ourselves but since he knows some of the students he's skipping with it. In the middle of the class my feeling gets uncomfortable at the same time thus i keep on smiling. When we take our recess me and my friends go to the canteen and suddenly we saw my boyfriend with his friends and he's gonna pass through us. I was shy, i can't look at him in the eyes or else im gonna die. I came in to urge of bumping onto him and chuckle a little. We haven't do some bonding nor conversation with each other, that's not what im expecting and looking forward to. He haven't show some efforts but still i keep on insisting that 'AHH I UNDERSTAND'.
We've discuss about 'Relationship', 'Sex', and 'Marriage'. There's so much i've learned in that topic and makes me realize the kind of situation we had with my boyfriend. He's in 4th year, time goes by also what if the school year ends without nothings happening to us? Im still 3rd year so next school year he's college now and i cannot see him anymore. Sudden goosebumps for me, im gonna wait of what move will he gonna do in able to protect our relationship.
For so many freakin' months i've had my monthly period now, it really kills my stomach but im very much relieve i thought im pregnant but i haven't comitted sex to anyone, not in my effin dead body, my virginity will be my special gift to the man i would marry someday and im not gonna ruin that promise.
"...Things happen for a reason, Every thoughts has its secret agenda behind it."
